I'd like to know why did I develop Multiple Sclerosis?
It's a challenge when you go through periods where you are stiff and numb or limbs fall asleep on you, your vision fails, you have cognative problems, memory problems, can't wear high heels and just a whole lot more...
I just wonder why all this happened to me. I'm in my child bearing years and it's hard to be single with MS. You wonder if there's a guy out there that can 'handle' dealing with an exacerbation. You wonder if you'll pass it to your children. You wonder if you're going to become a quadriplegic. You wonder a lot about it. But the one thing that I wonder about the most is...
Why did I develop MS?
"Hey, you created me. I didn't create some loser alter-ego to make myself feel better. Take some responsibility! ."
Originally posted by AWArulzHow am I going to face death is my question. My Granddad, Grandmom and Mother all died of cancer and it was intense for all of them. Can I face that (it's probably about 80% that it will be my fate also) with the courage they did.
Yes - that's mine. I know where I am going afterward, but the journey seems rough.
I've had questions like that for myself. Like, why am I me? Why is this conciseness in this body. Why was my birth in 1977 CE and not 1977 BCE? What is the meaning of life? Why live if we're just going to die in about 70 years or so?
I've had some very metaphysical questions I have been grappling with because my mother died in 2003, two months after my father lost his mother.
My father died three months ago.
I never imagined that my folks would be dead before I hit thirty.
"You want to tempt the wrath of the whatever from high atop the thing?" --Toby, West Wing
When I was looking for a new computer (my desktop is a Dell Dimension 4600 that is 5 or so years old), I noticed that processors seem to be basically maxed out. The Dimension came with a 2.8Ghz Intel Duo processor.